+_hope_+

what is the meaning of hope?
when is the time hope arrive?
who is the one who give me hope?
who is the one make me disappointed after giving me hope?
why must like this?
this is life?
my life?
it just so complicated...
who can give me all those answer
i am so hopeless.
i just hope i can keep myself off this kind of stuff
why must i involve in it?
its not my duty...

you

how could you?
how could you treat me like that?
do you know how sad am i?
i really so disappointed
my tears nearly come out
but i couldn't let it out
i must learn to be strong
but you are so important to me
i wish that i shall let you go but i can't...
what can i do?
let time to solve all this question?

lucky?

sometimes,
i really feel lucky that i no need to face those problems what my friends have to face
but when see their sad face
i hope that i am the one who face those problems but not them.
but sometimes,
i got to face those problems that other people don't have to face
what's my feeling?
do they know?
i think not.
when i was sad or angry,
do they think before what reason have made me sad or angry?
i know some of them they may think of that
but some of them just think that i am so weak
what problem i had face is almost people couldn't face it.
the difficulty of it,they will never know.
so,how lucky they are,
they should appreciate it.

~tired~

well.
what am i doing here?
just having fun? or?
spread out something that i couldn't spread in another place
haih~
i was so tired with it
i couldn't stand it anymore
i can just hold my expression but not to say it out
if i really wana say it out,
it may be too hurt for someone.
i just hope this will end earlier